Turning thirty-one!

TL:DR - Today I turned 31! I have been thoroughly spoilt by my family, friends and the wonderful man in my life, 

love him! Once I have finished birthday celebrations I need to stop eating crap :)

That gorgeous man of mine got me a gorgeous Chromebook to help me with my blogging (and online shopping.. ssshh!) but seriously it will make everything so much quicker and easier! I have gorgeous flowers, beautiful gifts and an adorable wish bracelet from my Godsons, and an awesome long weekend ahead with my Mr. Especially for a lockdown birthday it has been a good one! The only negative was not being able to hug everyone and spend time with them.

I have had a couple of messages on my IG, all of them suggesting they hope I'm not too sad that another birthday has come without a baby, thank you for your care and consideration, sincerely you are part of a club that none of us wanted to join and you understand the complexities of infertility better than most. Of course it has crossed my mind - when doesn't it on this crazy journey, every day I am a bit sad that we aren't pregnant yet, but right now I am just enjoying feeling loved and special, insecurities and anxieties creep in regularly but not today, I want to bottle this feeling! I am trying to be confident that this year we will fall pregnant and that I have the time now, once the birthday celebrations are over and I have eaten all of the cake, to focus on being as ready physically as I am mentally.

2020 was by and large a rubbish year, personally and globally, that's a totally different post for sure but I  have let lockdown get the better of me with weight gain, unhealthy eating, not taking my vitamins and supplements as regularly as I should and not doing yoga/pilates or really any form of exercise - not the perfect body to bring a pregnancy in to, this will be changing! Lockdown affords me nothing but time to be organised, eat the right things, do the meal prep, not give in to high calorie cocktails and a pizza at the end of the night and feel better about my body again. Last year I lost 1.5 stone on slimming world, I put this back on in the last 6 months and have every intention of shifting it again.

So for now I am going to enjoy my birthday weekend, drink the wine, eat the chocolate and celebrate at home, next week it is on! Project baby fit!

Thank you for all my well wishes

Team Endo at your Cervix

xxx